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maybe she will [19 Jun 2011|11:11pm]
[ mood | hard part ]

Really has it been this long...


really it has ....

I know right.?

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[20 Dec 2009|01:05am]
[ mood | cheers ]

just found out Hanson is doing a show of my life time! 7days in NYC full set of each album 1 a day... and a huge debut festival at the end... I must go to this even if its alone, I know it will be a blast and something as a fan I just shouldn't miss. The only thing that makes me sad is I wish someone was as equally excited as me :0 ah well its hard being awesome

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lappy must you hum in the quite library nobody will sit by me b/c of you! [02 Dec 2009|03:47pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

There are so many things that just drive me nuts, School on a sunny day, school in general, not enough money, things that are out of reach and writing things that I know I will never read again... are just to name a few. On the bright side this year is almost over and instead of feeling scared and sad like I normally do when things end I have unconsciously decided to just be excited for the beginning of the end and plain old not care... maybe it was all the apocalypse movies I have been watching lately but really when things come to on end are you going to cry and run or are you going to PAAARRRTTTTTAAAYYY!

I will let you decided but guess what one I will be doing?

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fog is dense [22 Nov 2009|09:37am]
So trying to keep excited for things to come, wanting to make many decisions however many of them are not the best... or are they, I can't tell I am bad at decisions never have been good at making them so who am I to say one is good or not.
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just me [12 Oct 2009|08:29pm]
[ mood | blank ]

So its been a while but I think I am ready to start feeling like myself again, there are many ways to do this and I think a few of them have started on there own. Naturally, these are good and bad but I am making the best of them. Hanson was fun and again something that helped and hurt the way I have been feeling, however LJ I think you will be here helping me sort this out for the next while...


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So this is the New Year and I dont feel any different [10 Jan 2009|01:20am]
So I have been meaning to do this for a while now, its one of the things on my list that really never gets done. I have been thinking about alot of things, well that is always but I want to put this out there and I dont know where to start, I honestly have started a million times in notebooks, journals, scrap paper in the bottom of my purse, backs of recipts, and in my head but some how when I try to put it in a place where others can read it nothing seems to come out.
Well the point is I am trying to come up with what is me, who am I, why, how... and not one of those meaning of life type deals just the facts, ya know.

Sometimes there are things I think I would really like or want to do and I never get around to it, I drink coffee because its good, and to help past the time, I noticed that one this summer. I hate using periods at the ends of sentences, I hate periods in general, they are annoying in all aspects. I once read this article about the actress Cameron Diaz, it said that she is the kind of girl that instead of stating that something is funny, she just laughs out loud at it. This is something I come back to often, I always state how things are funny... hummmmm.... funny huh..

I will sleep until next, however, I also seen somewhere something that really interested me, the meaning of life is to live it. It sounds so simple but and I am sure I heard that a million times but only that once did I ever pay attention, and with all I do (or dont do) recently I again come back to this often.
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deep in the heart [29 Oct 2008|10:23pm]
PeeWees big adventure...
I hope and I guess we will see.

Sometimes I want to live my life on the outside of me not like someone else just me looking in at me, i think that would be cool and someitmes more exciting....

I leave for Texes in the morning, I have to pack... Never been to Texes, have you?
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garage in the fall [26 Sep 2008|01:02am]
leaves....chilly nights.....smelly boys....garages....gas staion coffee......& no work tomorrow.....could life be more perfect?

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its been a long long time... [13 Sep 2008|11:20pm]
Why is it that I always have so much to say in here and time never lets me...

Summer was not my friend, but I dont want it to leave... kinda like keep you friends close but keep you enemies closer

food is also not a friend
but I like westerns and sleep and wine

that sums up a rainy saturday night <3
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Flat TIres suck [16 Jul 2008|09:01am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Well I am back and things didn't last as long as planned but really, what is planned about a unplanned trip. I had a great time in A2 and miss it there alot I just want to ride my bike around town and get coffee and sit outside. I loved being out west, past the Continental Divide when you know all the water that flows moves to the Pacific, one day I will be like that water, and have another Oregon Trail journey, except this time maybe I will make it to Oregon.

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Starting June 30th...............? [19 Jun 2008|09:55am]

At the end of this month (if all goes well) this is going to be what keeps me busy for the summer...
We have it somewhat mapped out, and it looks like I will at least make it to the Pacific Northwest coast (Portland) before we really become bums, from there we are going to beg, borrow, and peddle our way down the California Coast...

This will be interesting, I mean, to say the least.
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Dear Weekend.... [05 Jun 2008|09:07am]
Send me a good time, I am one year older and still nothing.

well maybe its because really Nobody likes you when your 23.
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its time [12 May 2008|08:11am]
What if time is never ending and yet we are always living the same lifes over and over again...
Time is hard, it always has been so mean to me, we have never gotten along, I hate how fast everything seems to be going by, I have always been sad on birthdays and New Years, night time makes me sad too, yet another day gone by, sleeping never helps either because to me that is a waste of time, its letting time get the best of time from you. It makes me dizzy to think how much time its been since (this) or how far away (that) is...
If we do all just keep living this same life on repeat, wheres the piece of the puzzle, what do I need to do to change something my next time around, Not for any reason just to do it. Reference being an ant walking around the rim of a glass, constant...
Really if I lived this life before wouldn't I have some sense of relief, why do I feel so bad all the time and I have no idea when it is going to end.
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I want to be [16 Apr 2008|12:19pm]
I miss FLORIDA but I know how lucky I am to have got to take a vacation from life and start a new one for just a little while...
My last Saturday to party in the sexiest place on earth, South Florida... well actully I danced till 1 in the morning all right at a Ba Mitzvah!
Its funny because if you know me well enough, you know that dancing around lip syncing to Justin Timberlake in a large group of 14 year old boys is right up my ally! I had the best time and made $150 cash not to mention the free drinks and life advice from one of the neatest guys I have ever met DJ JAZZ* ... yes, a DJ gave Jen and I life advice, I was riding in the back of a Cavalier, buzzed, soaking up all I heard, oh and laughing really hard with Jen.

The trip home was amazing I had such a good road trip with Jarrett, I think our relationship would be wonderful if he become a truck driver and we could just travel around the country, we would have a wireless truck and I would just freelance and give roadside haircuts...

Now its spring almost Summer and all I want to do is wake up early to sunshine, get a coffee with my love, drive down long country roads, paint my nails a new color every week, cause trouble, work a few hours in the evening, make $30, get out, cruise to A2, drink wine with Kate on the back porch with a pack of smokes and red lipstick, stay up later then normal, notice all the shooting stars I can (2 and counting) fall asleep with love and do it all over again and again and again.......
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'80s songs about me [18 Mar 2008|04:28pm]
When you hope for things that may never happen... is that what this is all called?

i dont want the meaning i just want things to happen, FAST and to not stop for a while,
I get bored so easily and when this happens the uneasy sets in

3 places at once please that soon will be my middle name
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Class A cigarettes [27 Feb 2008|10:59pm]
Tonight was a night... there was alot of thinking, thunking,thoughting, going on in a white G6. Yeah, the only car on the road with its windows down. Since it is freezing out, you know 59ish and all. Soy vanilla latte and 3 packs of mix and match Marlboros for only $9.99, (yes one pack being Light 100's) The no company part after a while got old, however the new driving mix didn't. I guess I just need... sometimes... just sometimes... want the confirmation on how bad an idea is, the company in laughter over a bad joke, and some counterparted sarcasm. All in all my next few weeks with be filled with company so these down nights must be enjoyed. How does it all work? I mean a quater tank of gas gone and still no answers.
Down here I am honey, sugar, sweetie or baby, but to be honest I dont feel like any of these things so I will continue to smirk and smile beacause everyone really is just a character in my world, so deal your cards right because the queen gets bitter quick and that only means one thing.... OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!

Hanson plays in Royal Oak mid April, so I might make an appearance, who knows anything is possible .
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Dear Mitten [25 Jan 2008|12:22pm]
Hey life hows it going...

Jobless, yes!
Lifeless, yes!
Smokeless, NO!
Wineless, NO!
Coffeeless, NO!
Saltwaterless, NO!

I guess theres no room for complaining...

(I am going to put a want ad in the paper)

I want a hot guy without a shirt to carry my drunk body to the beach and let me lean my head on his shoulder for hours while he reads me short stories by American authors, holds my cup of Dunkin' Dounts while I take small sips, and brushes my wind blown bangs out of my eyes.

If anyone knows this man please let me know.
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what to do [20 Jan 2008|11:51am]
I have no money seriously like $20...
haha isn't life insane
sometimes I feel like having a melt down but I cant decide who to model it after Britney or Mariah Carey...
I dont know Britneys meltdown seems to be lasting forever, I think I would get bored before it was over.

Not having a job makes everyday seem the same and online classes are not as amusing as actully going to class however I must look at the bright side its warm and I getting tan

I miss Michigan... well.. lets just say the people in it...

p.s. I miss cig smoke
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So this is the new year & I dont feel any different [01 Jan 2008|01:56pm]
Wine, Dancing, and Carson Daily brought in my 2008! Oh yeah and plenty of snow.

This is now what is suppose to be the time that I relect and plan for whats to come... well, besides getting my paper work sorted, and balancing my check book, the biggest plan I have for the new year is The beach, Me, neg 30ish pounds, wine coolers, iced coffee, and a good book. I leave in two weeks and nothing is ready! Last year was a bust, whats next, bring it on!

Dear 2008,

Well we just met and I guess so far so good, huh? To be honest starting these things make me kind of nervous but I dont really have a choice. Your here to stay for 366 days (leap year) and I decided that I am going to make the best of you. So welcome 2008, I just have the feeling that there is alot in store for us. <3
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what does it mean [30 Nov 2007|10:36am]
Well last night I decided in myself that I will do what it takes, I will be happy and I will be successful... regardless of what the overweight mean man says while he laughs at my dreams...

My success is not someone elses success so I need not to be quick to judge,
I wish that others would feel that way

I hope my life is all I want it to be... so far so good...

I will sell my soul if I must.... haha
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